Typical.

So we have all feasted with family and friends. Our stomachs full, and all we want to do is sleep.

Thanksgiving Day is now over, which means the official start to the Christmas season has begun (even though retailers and stupid fucks started getting ready the day after Halloween). I am sure everybody is getting to sleep early tonight to wake up at 3:00 AM to catch the black Friday sales...fuck that.

The holiday season will be different for me this year. I am not focusing on gifts and mindless bullshit. Instead I am going to focus on family, friends, music, and simply enjoying my time. I plan on writing a lot this season and taking many pictures. Also, I plan on relaxing a lot. For the first time in my life I can truly say I do not want anything for Christmas. I have everything I need, and money to buy myself the things I want. Simplicity is key to me this Christmas. Just two weeks left of classes then I will be able to enjoy it.

So after an extremely busy day at work yesterday, I was upset to find out about the bombings in India. It is very possible that this is yet another false flag operation (like 9/11) as a ploy for action to be taken in Pakistan. The terror alert is now raised in America and could quite possibly ruin the holiday season for many people. They are suggesting that NYC may be attacked before Christmas. This sickens me. Horrible. All that will come of this is us taking military action in Pakistan and hundreds of thousands of Innocent people dead for the benefit of the people up top in charge of everything. We are just a pawn. Okay sorry now I am just ranting...This is just my opinion based on my research.

Anyway...I have my last two weeks of classes coming up. I have a great deal of work to do before the end of the semester and I am not looking forward to it. It should be worth it though for after that I get to enjoy my month off.

Oh well I think I am done for now. The Office wasn't on tonight and I am pissed.

Until next time.

Happy Thanksgiving

poems.

UNTITLED 1

This is a constant mess,
My life scattered on guest checks and paper scraps.
If only these words could describe the reality of the situation,
And not the over dramatic scriptures of “woe is me.”
I am sick and tired of the constant blur of everyday life,
And I am sick and tired of bitching about it.
I am willing to let go, if someone is willing to catch me,
Or at least break my fall.
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UNTITLED 2

This moment is a still frame in my mind,
And soon it will hit the cutting room floor like all the rest.
All of the memories of life, stock piled in the corner of my mind
Constantly growing as each second passes,
And each being triggered with every familiar scent.

Out the car window it goes, like all the rest, tumbling down the freeway.
I need to set my mind free on the open road.
It’s where I need to be.

I need the California sun.
I am sick of dreaming for tomorrow.
I live for today.
I love today.
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UNTITLED 3

This melody will ring on in your brain until the season comes to hault,
And all the joy inside will subside.
It starts earlier and earlier each year to keep your hopes high,
To distract you from the collapse of all around you.

Keep singing the same songs if that's what makes you happy.
It will keep you pushing onward in these times where we wish we were far away.
Maybe things will change one of these days,
maybe things will change.

Today I awoke at 11:11 on 11/11

...and I have an excellent feeling about today (not to be a teenie bopper wishing every fucking night at 11:11, but today feels different)

The scene out my window portrays the skeleton of trees blotted against the beautiful blue Autumn sky. It gives me goosebumps.

This is going to be a busy day full of friends, family, and homework. I'm not too sure when it's going to begin, but I should probably get off my lazy ass soon and get moving.

I have been stressing a lot lately over school and my future and things of that nature, but I am going to use today to sort my mind out and get everything back on track. I need this. Real bad.

I really can't even keep my mind straight to keep writing. I am jittery and that's weird, I am never jittery. Oh...I finally wrote some new things for my collection of poetry which I will post later (I still need to touch them up a bit). I think I need to mow the lawn for my dad today. Other than that, today is going to be about self-fulfilment and finding myself through nature, friends, and family...and my homework. I hope to get a good portion of my creative writing homework accomplished today.

I feel like this blog today is a jumbled mess of absolutely nothing...oh well.


It's time to get this day moving.

gloom.

Rain, rain, rain. The sun has been missing in action for the past two days.

I am at a point in my life where I am truly stressed out beyond belief. The burden of school has finally caught up to me and I am drowning in school work. This will probably the most stressed out month of my life to date. I can only hope to get everything done that I need to and pass with decent grades. I see little social life in the future and many late nights to get myself back on track. But I gotta do what I gotta do.

I have been working on a poem for the past few days but I can't seem to figure out how to end it. Help and feedback would be nice via comment to this blog. Here it is:

I see peace in tonight’s autumn sky.
The orange glow of the moon reflects off of this quiet ghost town.
Even the smallest whispers echo throughout our atmosphere.

We try to piece together our thoughts of life, death, and everything in between.
This seems to be a constant struggle.
Our true intentions are always masked by something greater.

I don't know. Help if you can.

I really don't know what else to write about. I don't feel like rambling about the election and our new president. I just do not wanna go there right now. What I will say though, is that my vote went for Ron Paul. Hell yeah. I will also say, don't be surprised when we see very little to no change over the next four years.

I just realized that I always seem to post on Thursday's and I have no idea why. What an interesting feat.

I plan on finishing my poetry collection within the next week or two for creative writing, if I can get my creative juices flowing properly. I have had constant writers block for quite sometime now, I need to break that. I also need to get into the habit of writing daily again. I am falling,

somebody please catch me.

The Office is on tonight! Channel 4, 9:00PM. Watch it. You wont.

I think I will post a random picture.

See you next blog.

Until then.